A week or so ago I received a note from a very dear friend of mine who just happened to move to San Francisco. In her note she gave me a passage of scripture that the Lord had laid on her heart concerning me--
John 10:10 "The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy, I have come that they may have life, and have it to the full."
Today, I woke up and was just a mess from the start, tearing up at the slightest word or question. Hating my job, the weather, in general throwing myself a pity party. On up in the morning I had to call a client of mine, whom I love, and let her know that something she had been waiting for had been signed. When I gave her the news, she was praising the Lord and saying how much he had just blessed her again, then we made some small talk. In the midst of our conversation, she said "Kristina, you know a flower can't bloom unless that seed dies and is buried, and it's the same for you, you have to die to self." I cried again, but good tears this time. Then we were both praising the Lord, I know my co-workers think I'm batty sometimes, but that's quite alright.
The verse Jessica gave me is just what I needed, Satan, "the thief", wants to destroy and discredit everything that God has for me. He whispers to me that I'm not good enough, smart enough, talented enough. He knows that I am susceptible to worry, anxiousness, and fear, and that at times, I have allowed it to paralyze me, thereby not fulfilling some purpose God may have had for me. I praise God that I am moving forward. Playing the piano and singing last Sunday was a big step, but it finally got through my stubborness and pride, that it doesn't matter that I am not a wonderful pianist, it just matters that I am glorifying my Father. That is all I want to do in my life, and with my life is give Him glory. In so doing I will have a FULL life for that is what I was made to do praise and glorify my Lord.
My prayer is that all of us each day will wake up and be committed to "die to self" so that we may bloom into what God meant for us to be in Him!
